Thursday, May 5, 2011

For My {Beloved} Grandma J.

I thought of you with love today,
but that is nothing new,
I thought about you yesterday
and the day before that too.
I think of you in silence
and often speak your name.
All I have are memories
and your picture in a frame.
Your memory is my keepsake
with which I will never part,
God has you in his keeping,
I have you in my heart.



Monday, April 4, 2011

Living Life

Life is not a race- but indeed a journey. Be honest. Work hard. Be choosy. Say "thank you", "I love you" and "Great job" to someone each day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh. Let your handshake mean more than pen and paper. Love your life and what you've been given, it is not accidental --- search for your purpose and do it as best you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become what you aspire to be. Laugh often. Appreciate the little things in life & enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, Less wrinkles are more becoming. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself- plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know. Live for today. Enjoy the moment.
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Tuesday, March 29, 2011

To Be Me

I just realized that I need to start writing again. I miss that feeling of pen to paper, fingers to keyboard, thoughts to words to storyline. I have no idea what I'll write about. I don't know how often I'll write. And I don't have a clue who will read it. I just know it has to be done...for ny sanity.


P.S. I am open to suggestions...
...or homework assignments...
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Tuesday, March 22, 2011

reflecting

.duh.
.i.love.you.
and explaining [why] is
like explaining
[the] [taste] [of] [water]

[retaw] [fo] [etsat] [eht]
gninialpxe ekil
si [yhw] gninialpxe dna
.uoy.evol.i.
.hud.


[for mikey]

i.don't.pretend.to.know.what.love.is.for.everyone.
           but.i.can.tell.you.what.it.is.for.me.
                       love.is.knowing.all.about.someone.
                                     and.still.wanting.to.be.with.them.
                                                   more.than.any.other.person.
                                                                 love.is.trusting.them.enough.
                                                   to.tell.them.everything.about.you.
                                      including.the.things.you.might.be.ashamed.of.
                        love.is.feeling.comfortable.and.safe.with.him.
            but.still.getting.weak.in.the.knees.
everytime.he.walks.into.the.room.
            i.love.you.michael.wynkoop.
                        with.everything.that.i.am.
                                     thank.you.for.helping.me.to.learn.
                                                   what.love.really.is.
                                                                all.only.always.yours.
                                                                         
                 
                                                                    
                                                                 


              
               

.the.way.i.see.it.

There's no such thing as
Fairy tales
so don't expect 
to live one.
LAUGH when you're happy.
FROWN when you're sad.
Don't be afraid to let the tear drops fall
Soak It All In
DANCE to the beat of
your heart.
&&& when  LOVE knocks on your door
Let It In
don't be afraid TO TAKE A RISK
CHERISH your friends
there's.a.reason.they're.there.
PLAY in the rain &
& SWIM in the ocean
Accept that your heart
will get broken
once.twice.or 1,000 times.
YOU WILL LOVE AGAIN.
SING in the shower.
DANCE in the mirror.
roll the windows d
                                        o
                                              w
                                                    n
& let the wind blow your hair.
make misteaks mistakes
don't regret them
Realize that there is no such thing as
Mr.Right
but if he loves you
Let him.
He won't be a 
knight in shining armor.
He won't
sweep you off your feet.
 but
he will
catch you when you
f
a
l
l
He's not supposed to make you happy
He's supposed to make you happier.
FIND happiness in YOURSELF
.its.there.if.you.look.for.it.
take lots of PICTURES
:) with LOTS of goofy faces :)
Eat popsicles
   && read the jokes on the stick
Live your life
to make you smile
.&.make.it.worth.while.
CHERISH the moments you have
 because one day it will be
{GONE.}


{Love}

I'm not sure exactly what Heaven will be like.
But I don't know that when we die
& if comes the time for God to judge us,
He will not ask,
"How many good things have you done in your life?"
Rather He will ask,
"How much love did you put into what you did?"


-Mother Teresa



Monday, January 31, 2011

*Life*

Life changes every minute of everyday.
You lose friends. You gain friends.
You realize that your friend wasn't ever really your friend
&&& that the person you used to hate is a really good friend.
You look for love.
You find love.
You lose love.
You realize that all along you've been loved.
You laugh. You cry.
You laugh so hard you cry.
You do this. You do that.
You really really wish you hadn't done that.
You learn from that.
&&& thank God you did!
You have ups & downs.
You see good movies & you see bad movies.
Sometimes you wonder if life is one big movie.
You look at others & wish you were them.
Then you realize who they really are,
&& you're very glad that you are you.
You love life.
You hate life.
In the end, you're glad to just be living life.
[no matter what's thrown at you]

Sunday, January 30, 2011

100 Things That Brighten My Day

1. :: Karlee Elizabeth ::
...my little princess...
...growing, changing & learning so much everyday...
...with kisses and "love oooos" that melt me to the core...
.I never understood that mother-daughter bond until she came into my life.

2. :: James William III ::
...my man. <3...
...my little skater-dude redneck four wheelin, dirt bike riding,
gonna-cause-me-to-have-a-heart-attack-son...
...what can I say? he keeps me on my toes...
 I love him so much! 

3. :: Madison Blaze ::
...just like a daughter to me...
 ...my thrifting buddy...
 ...we get a little bit closer everytime she brings that tangled mess of hair to me to brush :) ...
 .I'm glad she's in my life. 

4. :: Mikey ::
my forever. my love.
.my always. my only.
.my constant support.
.my punching bag when I've had a bad day. 
.the man that gives me a back massage almost every night
& makes me coffee every morning.
.The one that teases me because I'm emotional...
...but loves me even more because I am. 
I don't wanna imagine life without you. 

5. :: Jessica Lynn ::
...my very best friend for over 20 years...
...the one who tells me like it is...
...my children's godmother...
...she reads my mind, calls my bluff...
...I'd be lost without you...

6. :: Daddy::
 ...I'm a daddy's girl...
 ...always there, encouraging, teasing, loving...
...my best friend...
...always right in his advice...
[but don't tell him I said that] 

7. :: Bacon::
 .you knew it was coming. 
       
8. :: My cell phone ::
.it keeps me connected.

9. :: Facebook ::
.the best way to keep in touch.

10. :: Coffee ::
<3 Love <3
...you're always there when I need you...
...you pick me up when I'm down...
...you're the 2nd best wake up call...
...you give me that little burst of energy mid-day...
...you help me stay up late with Mikey...
...&&& you smell amazzziiinnggggg...

11 :: Amp ::
 ...yes I drink more than the recommended amount...
...&& friends think its gonna cause a heartattack...
...earned me the nickname MJB "mexican jumping bean"...
...is the only thing that picks me up when coffee fails...
[but only the red one]

12. :: Niece & Nephews ::
...lil macon...
...logan...
...lucas...
...mckinzie...
...jd...
...joshie...
...lil jason...

13. :: Wachovia: Louisa ::
...i love my job...
[for once a real career!!]
...i love my co-workers...
[most of them anyway]
...fun, fun, fun group of gals...
...two words: shoop shoop...
..."how much were ya'll drinking??" NONE!...


14 .:: My flat iron ::
.it straightens me out when i'm curly...

15. :: Contacts ::
...they allow me to enjoy #16...

16. :: Crazy BIG sunglasses ::
...the bigger and more outrageous the better...

17. :: Classic mustangs ::
...I don't own one now, but I will...
...a 1964 1/2 Coupe to be exact...
...playboy pink with black interior...
...original working radio with tissue box swivel holder...
...289-cleaveland...

18. :: Cooking with Mikey ::
...experimenting in the kitchen=happiness...
..."damn! thats good"...
..."hold on let me take a picture before you eat it"...
..."you're always hungry."...

19. :: The beach ::
 .There's not much better.
.seashells.
.sand castles.
.waves crashing.
.tidewater running over toes in the sand.
.kissing on the beach under the stars.

20. :: Eye liner ::
 .You'll rarely see me without it.

21. :: Jeans ::
 ...They're the best...
 ...Especially ripped jeans with my big sunglasses...
...dress em up, wear em down...

22. :: Singing in the car ::
...i don't care how bad it sounds...
...singing at the top of my lungs, windows down, sunroof open...
...singing with Karlee: this is bigger than hip hop...
...singing to Mikey && getting the "awww" look...

23. :: HOT SHOWERS ::
...I'm lucky I haven't scalded my skin yet...
...Mikey thinks its too hot...
...still steamy when i get out...
...relaxing...
...3rd best wake up...

24. :: Bubble baths ::
...plus a good book...
...&&&...

25. :: Blackberry Merlot ::
.l.o.v.e.

26. :: Movies::
...its all we watch...
...all kinds now...
[yep, I watch scary movies]
I hate love them

27. :: Drinking a beer with Mikey ::
...on occassion...
...especially with a steak and baked potato...
...or with friends...
...and hamburgers, hot dogs, Jessi's potato salad & horseshoes...

28. :: Hair dye ;:
 ...look at the pics people...
...I like to change my hair...
[alot]
...blonde, brunette, redhead, black, dk brown with bright red streaks, highlighted, pink...
[i've been them all]

29. :: Inside Jokes ::
...OMC...
...i saw the sign...
...my bad...
...great minds, & dumb ones...
...perriair...
...bakon vodka...
...raptor arm...
...the chair at TGIF...
...the pink cowboy boot at Target...
...the window of the moving car I tried to jump out of...
...do you smell popcorn...

30. :: SHOES ::
...pink converse...
[karlee has a matching pair]
...red pumps...
[that apparently make me look like Minnie Mouse when worn with a red blouse]
...snakeskin heels...
[even though they're a little too small]
...suede cowboy boots...
[divorce present to myself]
...flip flops, heels, boots, ballet flats, lace up, stilettos...
.l.o.v.e.

31. :: My bed ::
...my daddy built it for me...
[as a divorce present]
 ...and I love it...

32. :: My flat screen TV ::
36" HDTV
 (I got it in the divorce)

33. :: Music ::
.country.hip hop.rock'n'roll.alternative.blues.gospel.jazz.classical.r&b.rap.80's.90's.today.yesterday.

34. :: My church friends ::
 ...for keeping me grounded...
...for being there...
 I love you Hiedi and David!
I love you Missy and Macon!
I love you NRBC!

35. :: My Southern Accent ::
it never fails to get a laugh

36. :: THE RED SOX ::
.my favorite. 

37. :: Sweet Caroline ::
... (sorry Jess...not Carolina)...

38. ::Thrifting ::
...love it...
...cheap, fun way to decorate...
...so many ideas...
.looking for.
W
large right angle
window
shutters
 picture frames
clocks
knobs
jars
bottles

39. :: Dancing ::
...even though I have no rhythm...
...makes Mikey laugh at me...
...Karlee loves it too...
[she's got better rhythm than me]

40. :: Skin on Skin ::
 Sigh
41. :: HUGS! ::
 ...Love em...
...especially from the little ones...
...and best friends...
...and my honey...
...and daddy...

 42.  :: Kids ::
...they're painfully honest...
...like little tape recorders on playback...
[especially when you don't want them too]
...picky eaters, always hungry, copycats, playmates, attitude, video gamers...
.starwars.pandas.zoobles.sharks.mylittlepony.insects.dinosaurs.barbie.legos.matchboxcars.pirateships.

43. :: Laughter ::
.the best medicine.

44. :: Freckles ::
.mine.
.his.
.kids.
.shoulders.
.noses.
.finger.
.chest.

45. :: James III's Eyes ::
...they're green...
...I won...
 46. :: Brown eyes ::
.my weakness.
.love his.
.love the look.

47. :: Daisies ::
 ...they make me smile...
...white & yellow...
...classic...
...beauty...
...fresh...

48. :: Taking pictures ::
.creative.
.makes me happy.
.expression.
.nikon L110--I want.
.wynks&smiles.

49. :: Goofy face pictures ::
.fun.


50. :: Beverage pictures ::
.adorn my wall.

51.:: Unconditional love ::
.family.friends.mikey.kids.

52. :: My family!! ::
...gave me roots...
...encouraged me to spread my wings...

53. :: Especially my cousins ::
...i've got the best...
.ethan.sarah.robert.laura.heather.amanda.bre.melissa.joe.gene.ryan.andy.christie. 

54. :: Swearing::
..I'm not proud of it but sometimes I cuss like a sailor...
it gets the point across

55. :: BOLD Chex Mix ::
.yum.

56. :: Chocolate Chex Mix ::
.yummier.

57. :: Alphabetizing ::
.books.
.cds.
.dvds.
.kids.
.pastas.
.songs.
.spices.
 .this list.

58. :: Project 365 ::
.a picture a day for a year.

59. :: Honey Mustard ::
.great with fries.
.& chicken fries.
.&& quesadillas.
.&&& salad.

60. :: Cute Guys in Guy Movies  ::
.johnnyknoxville.
.bradleycooper.
.tomwelling.
.johnnydepp.
.orlandobloom.
.vindiesel.
.therock.
.jakegyllenhaal.


61. :: My Planner ::
.it keeps me organized.
.with a line for each person.
.&&& a pocket.

62. :: Lake Anna ::
in the summer
with Jessica
Charlene's cool living room after sunning on the dock
"borrowing" other people's floats
David's boat

63. :: Jessica's Corn Beef Dip ::
...i beg her to make it alot...
...in fact, if you're reading this Jess, could you make some?...

64. :: Heather's Buffalo Chicken Dip ::
...none like it...
...made with love...
...caused a marriage proposal...

65. :: Mikey's Pasta Goulash Pot::
...incredibly delicious...
...perfection...

66. :: Food ::
...i'm a foodie...
...no surprise if you know me...
...always hungry, always eating...
...never gaining weight...
[don't say you hate me, it's not my fault]
asparagus.broccoli.chickenfries.doughnuts.fries.mango.pasta.peach.pineapple.pizza.quesadillas.texastoast.

67. :: Sandlot ::
...with lil James...
..."you never, ever hit a girl Creep! Right mom?"...
...foooor---eeeeeee---veeeerrrrr...
...foooor---eeeeeee---veeeerrrrr...

68. :: Peace ::
.out.
.dueces.
.taught karlee.

69. :: Starbucks My Coffeepot ::
...we're in a recession...
...i bought a coffee grinder...
...it's better...
...&&& about $5 cheaper per cup...


70. :: Thirty Days of Pictures ::
.stole the idea from Serena.
.fun.

71. :: Dancing in the rain ::
.sigh.

72. :: Thunderstorms ::
.sexyyyy.

73. :: Oreo's ::
.america's favorite cookie.
.i've eaten alot of them lately.

74. :: Tattoos ::
.ready for #3.
-[1st]heart on my wrist.2008-
-[2nd]gaelic symbol for eternal friendship on my neck.2009-

75. :: Piercings ::
.ear lobes: two each.
.upper ear cartlidge: right.
.nose ring: took out for Wachovia.
.belly button: no way!.


76. :: Ed Hardy ::
.perfume.
.glasses.
.pint glass.
.shot glasses.

77. :: Twilight ::
.& New Moon.
.&& Eclipse.
.&&& Breaking Dawn.
...so far i think the books are better...


78. :: Books ::
 ...I love to read...

79. :: James Patterson ::
.my favorite author.
.collect his books.
.unique.

80. :: Maximum Ride ::
.by James Patterson.
...and I can't wait for...

81. :: Giving birth ::
.made me stronger.
.an amazing feeling.
.gives new meaning to love.

82. :: Shoulders ::
...loveem...

83. :: Video Games ::
.wii mario.
.raving rabbids with Mikey & the brothers.
.my son trying to teach me halo on xbox360.
.mikey trying to teach me crackdown on xbox360.
.causes 5 year olds to actually be quiet for more than 2 seconds.

84. :: Coffee Creamer ::
.my favorites.
-pumpkin spice latte-
-sweet italian creme-

85. ::  Coffee Grinder ::
 .i take pleasure in the little things.
.makes me feel special to have fresh ground coffee.

86. :: Kona ::
 .my favorite coffee blend.

87. :: Coffee Dates with Jessica ::
-a tradition we're starting for these two busy moms-
-highly valued & loved-

 88. :: Bamboo ::
--the best chinese food ever--

89. :: Snapfish ::
.great deals.

90. :: Summer ::
...it doesn't get much better...
.flipflops.tanktops.shorts.denimskirts.beach.sand.lake.sunroofopen.warmnights.bonfires.parties.vacation.

91. :: Rocky Road Ice Cream ::
-yummy-
-great with coffee-

 92. :: Old School Movies ::
.dirty dancing.
.newsies.
.footloose.
.karate kid.
.back to the future. 

93. :: Songs ::
...make me remember...
[even if they make me cry]
[or laugh]

94. :: Sounds ::
.waves crashing on the beach.
.seashells on your ears.
.children laughing.
.friends laughing.
.coffee pot dripping.
.bacon sizzling.
.karlee singing.
.wine hitting the glass.
.slurp of coffee.
.tires on gravel.
.
95. :: Italy ::
-my dream vacation-

96. ::  Pineapple ::

97. :: Photo Editing ::
.lets me be creative.
.fun.

98. :: Smells ::
.baby powder.
.freshly washed hair.
.mikey's body wash.
.daddy's cheek after he shaves.
.lil james'  deoderant.
.daisies.
.baby breath.
.coffee.
.bacon.
.my hazelnut candle.
.sunflowers.

99. :: My personality ::
...who else do you know that will apologize to a chair or wall if they walk into it?!...

100.  :: Sights ::
.my children playing when they think i'm not watching.
.sunset at the beach.
.tide on sand.
.laundrymat photos.
.green.
.mikey cooking.
.the constellation night light we got the kids.